my twakkers

yesterday was such a drag. i was full of..."shit", feeling low and angry (see my post yesterday)... and to make it worse, hungry :-P i rendered OT up to 9:30pm because i don't want to leave things undone (since monday is a holiday, yoko matambakan ng work sa tuesday)... funny thing was the people who kept bugging me here the whole week went home early, so ako na lang naiwan sa office. the nerve talaga...hmp! so i didn't eat dinner and i have this problem if i don't eat pag gutom na talaga ko, my head really hurts then mahihilo na ko. to suppress the pain for a while, i ate some cookies (it's my backup food na nasa bag ko lang in case nga magutom - in short bawal ko magutom wahaha!) quarter to 10pm i punched out. good thing ria was there so may kasabay ako kumain at umuwi. (it was so nice of her to accompany me sa sukiya ksi alam nya nga na sumasakit ulo ko pag di ako nakakain :-P)

anyway, every friday night i talk to my parents thru ym. even i was late, they waited for me until i got home. it was such a nice feeling talking to them. i tried to tell them my "feelings" (again, see post yesterday) but they were really excited to talk about our new sky cable digital box. hahaha! katawa tatay ko ksi tuwang-tuwa siya dahil dami daw pwdeng gawin. pero ung nanay ko sasabihin lang sa kin na takot naman daw gumamit tatay ko ksi baka masira :-P (they are not that techie, they panic if a pop-out msg will come out the computer screen then they will just press the restart button :)) ) for 40mins we just chatted abt the digibox, my cousin who got married bec she's preggers :-P and my dog...

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this morning, as i woke up, i recalled what happened to me the past week... as i stared at the ceiling, i remembered those people who simply encourage me to be strong... na alam ko na kahit malayo ako, mahal nila ako... na alam nilang kaya ko ito kahit ako minsan nakakalimot na kakayanin ko ito... na kumakampi sa kin at galit na rin sila sa kinaiinisan ko... na pinapatawa nila ko sa mga kwento nila, korni man o hindi... na pinapagalitan ako ksi hinahayaan ko daw na matalo ako ng galit... na sana kayanin raw ng pasensya ko, habaan ko pa ang pisi ko... or those who just simply remind me that i am not alone...

and again, i cried... not because of anger... it's because of overwhelming joy and love i feel from these people... even miles away :-)

thank you... my twakkers >:D< miss you all...

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i know, hindi Mo po ako ilalagay sa isang situasyon na hindi ko kakayanin... i surrender to Your will and plans for me... i will just rest my all to You... for You will carry me when i'm tired... and You'll walk by me always...

p.s. thank You for giving me my twakkers... :-)